I could've gone without yesterday and my life would probably have been better for it.
Are we always not going to have anything to say? Have we really exhausted all possible conversation lines in the last 4yrs? Is this what the next 4yrs is going to be like?
If I had recorded all the time I saw my husband in the past 12 months, I wouldn't be surprised if that only added up to 6 months of family time.
Not him coming in at 2am and me waking up long enough to register he's home before passing back out. Not phone calls. Not him rushing home to pick up something he forgot and getting an extra "I love you" as he ran out the door. Actually family time. Even if all we did was lay around the house for an hour.
We always neglected our own relationship to ensure that the kids had solid bonds with us. If someone was sick or scared, they'd sleep in bed with us, even if it was our anniversary. We put off date nights alone for trips to the zoo for the 3rd time or to the beach, just so the kids could play in the sand and eat seashells (I still find sand piles in the van).
I guess I'm just being selfish. But I miss my husband. Even when he's not physically gone.
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